Los Angeles · London · Hell 1967 — 1980 A Novel
Vol. I — Marigold Montefiore

This is What
makes us
girls.

A novel by Marigold Montefiore
This isn't nostalgia. It's an autopsy.
Adult content · drugs · violence · fury
Chapter zero · The Band

Five girls. An empire.

TAINT was a teenage dream — assembled in hotel rooms with ceiling fans turning above overflowing ashtrays.

They screamed anyway. Screamed down the microphones until stadiums caved in. Screamed until the American dream bled from the nose. This book is what was left once the lights cut, the contracts burned, and the police shut the final door behind them.

The Girls —
saints, martyrs, witches.

Five cracked windows
Carmen
Darling darling
Carmen
All dressed up with nowhere to go
Mary Jane
American sweetheart
Mary Jane
Careful who you become just to be loved
Molly
LOML
Molly
I was equally condemned
Lucy
She knows
Lucy
I wanted to stay silly forever
Crystal
Dancing with ghosts
Crystal
Haunting the narrative - Would we do it all over again?

A discography of pain.

Four acts · one epitaph
October
27, 1967
The Killing of America Act I · A scream against the war

The debut. Three chords, two screams, a ripped flag on the sleeve. Recorded in twelve days, banned in three states, sold out in two weeks. The punk the broadcasters called 'hysteria'.

October
31, 1969
No Coward Soul Is Mine Act II · Witchcraft and revolt

The witches' record. Lyrics half-stolen from Emily Brontë and laid over cocaine-wet basslines. The industry starts, for the first time, to be afraid of them.

October
28, 1971
St. Jude, the Patron Saint of Lost Causes Act III · Depression and inwardness

The record that turned them into saints. Sessions halted three times by overdoses. Cracked stained glass, church organs.

December
21, 1980
I Wish I Was a Girl Again Act IV · A ghostly epitaph

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Tainted Kids —
diaries on the wall.

Toilet walls · zines · letters
"They weren't saved. They saved us." — anonymous letter · Detroit · '78
Not a single scream. — Liverpool · '75
TAINTED KID MANIFESTO N° 14 — we are the girls our fathers failed to shape. We are the powder left after the party. We are five fingers at the throat of the American dream. — photocopied zine · San Francisco · '77
Cut my hair like Carmen's. My stepfather hit me. I went back to the bathroom and cut it shorter. — toilet-wall note · CBGB · '78
Every day at school we draw a bleeding heart on the desk. Anyone who rubs it off is a grass. Anyone who doesn't is a Tainted Kid forever. — confiscated notebook · Manchester · '79
"I wish I was a girl again" — a lie. Nobody wants to go back. We only wanted to be heard the first time round. — fanzine cutting · anonymous
Read it slowly. It's blood, not ink.
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